Currently on my needles
At the moment I am busy with three projects: The first is the Westknits MKAL 22 that I started in October, like a whole lot of others. I am however one of the last to still knit. To be exact I am still knitting clue 1. Yes, you read this right. I am a slow-mo. I am enjoying the knit so far but decided not to stress over being probably the last MKALer to finish it. Calathea is my current crochet project. It (hopefully) will be a kimono-style cardigan. I am a bit iffy about it at this point. I am not sure if this will actually work the way I hope it will and if it will actually suit me. But also I have utter yarn regret. See I really wanted something in what I think of as Lisbon green, but I couldn't find any 100% natural fibre yarn with that color, so I went with an acrylic/cotton mix. And you guessed it, this fibre snob is not sure she will wear something 35% acrylic. I was about to abandon it last night but decided to just keep going and assemble the kimono in a wee bit of a shorter version before giving up on it completely. Last is a slipover. It's also my newest project but so far I am loving it and I think I will finish it very soon. (well, soon for a slow mo so another week or so.) I love the fit and the feel. The yarn feels like a cloud and with the weather dropping to 15C here I could really use a bit of an alpaca cloud hug. Ravelry links for more details:MKAL 2022CalatheaSlipover
Reflections on this space
I have been very much mia again. Somehow this year just flew by and I got a list of excuses as to why I didn't post more on the blog or on social media, but let me not bore you. I am re-evaluating my photography work and with that all my creative endeavors. I have been reflecting a lot on my current work situation lately and realized that I have been going in a direction that I am not really interested in. I keep asking myself: why be a freelancer and end up doing projects that I find not creatively fulfilling? I am taking December off to decide what I would like to do next. I have a vague idea but need to set proper outlines and also to just see what emerges when I just take photos for joy. I have kept up with the 365 photo project, I am posting the photos on my personal IG. I am really enjoying it actually. It's very fluid and kinda just whatever catches my eye, a lot of the time they just snap taken on my phone. Yet I am really happy with it and I am thinking of printing them all and making a little book for myself at the end of it. It has become a space for me to just follow creative whims at times and that has been quite invigorating but also eye-opening. I still love photography very much, but somehow I feel like I might kill my own creative drive by setting limits and definitions for myself. I find that I still am trying to fit a niche half the time. The worst part for me personally however is that I suddenly realized that I have put myself into a niche professionally that doesn't really suit me. Now I have the luxury that I can just step away and redefine things as my husband is covering rent and food for me. Which is why I am going to do exactly that. Talking about niches I still find it really hard to answer the question: So what do you do?It's simply not so clear-cut. I tend to answer that I am a freelance photographer these days. But then when the conversation goes on people realize that I also studied chemistry, did counseling, was a teacher, an artisan.. quite a few different things. I still think it sounds like I am a bit of a flake. So I try to limit the exposure of my illustrious jack-of-all-trades CV. I basically niche myself with each person differently. It's something I have for some reason always done, quite unconsciously actually. This results in me having a very diverse social circle, something I actually really cherish. It means I am challenged to grow and see many different angles of life. I always had many diverse interests. I was the chemistry student who made paper mache bowls during her downtime. While I was working in refugee camps I took up embroidery and when I worked as a jewelry designer I ended up making porcelain bowls on the side. I find that I do my best work when I do several different things at one time. Like if I study a lot, I do something creatively that allows my mind to wander or if I am socializing a lot, I do something that needs my attention and solitude. Most of my creative endeavors end up overlapping and becoming a multimedium kind of a thing. Looking at my creative history I find that I always looked to combine my passions, like bringing my creative life together into one project. I keep feeling like I fail utterly at this endeavor. I know I said this before, but I am back to thinking: I am my niche. Long story short, I will be posting more about my creative endeavors. Whatever they are. I decided that one of my goals for the next year is to follow and share my passions. So this will space will be more of a what inspires me, my passions and interests kind of blog. What might that encompass you ask?Well the things that inspire me are traveling, nature, and the beauty of this world.My passions are history, food, all things artisan, books, fountain pens, and exploring.
The thing about… Lemon Juicers
Let me start by explaining that I am a kinda minimalist when it comes to possessions. Why kinda, you might wonder. Well, I don't want too much stuff however, I do make an exception when it comes to tools and books. Tools to me are artisanal tools from fountain pens to knitting needles to a gnocchi board and all other creative tools in-between. And I honestly don't think one can have too many books. Any kind of books, notebooks included. But I digress. My brand of minimalism is that I don't have 2 or 3 of the same /similar things. I basically (try to) only buy an item I need or I will use and I get the best quality I can. This is my philosophy on all things I buy, be that clothes or household things even when it comes to tools. I rather wait a little while and get the perfect (for me) item, than get one that is cheap or not quite what I want. My husband has a different philosophy. He is of the school of thought that you get what you can when you can because he says you can always replace it with better. I also consider him a bit of a hoarder.. so we kinda clash on our buying philosophy. He feels I keep waiting too long or don't indulge enough. I think he buys too quickly and unnecessarily.But also I should say, one of the reasons I am careful in my acquisitions is that in my experience if you get a crappy tool, most of the time one doesn't replace it. You make do with it and I find I end up annoyed that I have to deal with the crappy thing every time I use it, but still make do with it. So it's better not to be stuck with one that doesn't fit. What does all this have to do with lemon juicers, you probably wonder. Well, let me tell you why I am telling you all this. So this is what happened: I dropped my lemon juicer a few months ago and it broke, It was one of those traditional glass ones. I love those, so I was a bit gutted when it broke because it was nice and I used it quite often.Now this doesn't seem like a big deal, right? It's easy enough to replace. I thought so, too. Alas, I couldn't find any of them at the shops around here. They only had ugly plastic ones, which I refused to buy. I found myself using a fork as a squeezer for weeks (more like months actually). So Mr O told me to get an ugly plastic one.I refused. This went on for several more weeks. In my defence, the ugly ones weren't just not-pretty, but they looked unpractical and like they could break easily. I try to avoid plastics, so I think I was justified here.Then the citrus season came along. I usually make preserved lemons, mandarins and kumquats. This time, I kept postponing making my yearly batch. So we ran out of preserved lemons and I lamented the fact that I couldn't make more. Mr O was not very sympathetic to my dilemma. He told me, "just get the bloody juicer from the supermarket."I still refused.Then on one of my photo walks through Tahtekale I saw a shop that had kitchen supplies. And there was a juicer that cost approx. 50cents and seemed ok. Not exactly pretty, but sturdy. So I bought it. Kid you, not a few days later they had the glass ones in the supermarket. Here I was with my not quite perfect PLASTIC lemon juicer. I was not impressed. But now I had one, soooo... (I am stuck with it) I bet you are wondering why is she yapping on about juicers, who cares? And I admit you are right. What's the big deal? But see I have just renewed my intentions, I want to have less stuff not more and I wanna have a more sustainable household. I feel like we have somehow accumulated way too much stuff in our flat. A flat that's a bridge solution until with find a place we wanna settle, which means we going to have to move it all. This all meant that the ugly plastic juicer went against my intentions but so does buying a second glass one. The perfectionist overachiever in me just couldn't kinda let go of this. I was thinking about that this morning. And while I still think Mr O is too much of a consumer (and a bit of a hoarder) I also have to admit he doesn't get caught up in these kinds of dilemmas. He will just go more with the flow, just take what happens and run with it. I am pretty sure he doesn't waste much thought on what kind of a juicer one should possess nor does he much care about trivial things. What I am saying in a roundabout way is: I tend to get stuck on the goals and limits I set myself. And while grit is great, there is a fine line between being stubborn and having perseverance. I tend to get caught up in the small details because I want each detail to be perfect but we all know this is unachievable so I waste a massive amount of energy on inevitable things.While goals and intentions are really important, I think it is more important to keep moving rather than get stuck on details and to focus on the end goal & the journey. In the end, it's all about finding a good balance.As always I guess. Also, life is full of little reminders like lemon juicers... I was thinking about all of this, while I was juicing some pomegranates this morning. And I had two epiphanies: First: the not quite ugly plastic thing is actually pretty awesome and it doesn't only work for lemons but also as... Continue Reading →
Panorama : Winter weekends in Istanbul
Photos of weekends spent around Beyoglu, Istanbul
Reflections on January 2022
January started off slow and intentional. I reset my intentions and made time for my mourning routine. I felt like the first two weeks were an eternity. In fact, I even said that maybe this year will not be a total blur. And then, it all rushed by. Point of fact: I am writing this in mid-Feb. Even though I actually did write a small review into my journal. for some reason, I never got around to actually typing it out. I feel that I haven't gotten much done in the last couple of weeks of January, despite rushing around and always being busy. I ended up having sleeping issues as well, which retrospectively is most likely due to my ignoring my evening routine. I had two major deadlines in January. So I did spend quite a bit of time procrastinating and then freaking out. I would like to say I can actually pinpoint why I do it, but I have only a vague idea for my reasons. It is definitely something I will address in the next few months. But one thing I realised is that, I am not interested in being busy, feeling rushed and stressed. I don't really thrive on it anymore. I have no issue with working hard and a lot, but I actually do not enjoy the pressure of doing stuff within the last minute anymore. I feel like I am done with unnecessary drama, business and stress. I have been diligently working on Project 365. It's been interesting especially when we had bad weather and I am really not feeling like venturing out, so I have been taking way more stills. Also while I have purposely not set the task as having to be in a theme or even that I need to use my canon for the daily photo. The eternal perfectionist in me feels like the photos should still tell a story and I cringe when I only did take a photo on my phone. Then there is the not very curated grid that comes from this. It has been quite honestly a massive exercise in letting go for me for the first month. As I am talking about Project 365, I decided not to post the photos every week, because I feel like I am posting the same thing over and over. So if you want to see the actual photos visit my personal Instagram account. I do (most of the time) post daily. I will share the monthly mosaic with my reviews. That's all for now.Happy Valentines Day!
Week 2 of 2022
Project 365 I am taking a photo every day of this year. These are the snaps for week 2 You can find Week 1 here
Project 365
One of the goals I set for myself this year is to do a 365 project, I mentioned this in my first post of the year. Essential this is a challenge to take a photo every day for one year. I have done this twice before and I actually quite enjoy the challenge of being consistent. I felt that in the last couple of years I kept taking fewer and fewer photos. Most of the time only shoot if I have a specific idea or project, which is totally the opposite of what I used to do before I did this professionally. An acquaintance of my husband described me to him as the person that is always taking photos once. He absolutely wouldn't today. It's not that I don't adore the medium anymore, but more that I keep attaching strings to it. I self-critic myself out of shooting, literally. Also in all honesty my camera is way bigger and heavier than my little beginners one I used to have, so it's connected to pure laziness as well. Anyway. I felt this challenge might help me just get back into enjoying the process and no overthinking just shooting. However knowing myself I decided to add that it can be any photo taken, even with my phone. I am sharing the snaps daily on my personal Instagram account and decided to do a weekly review of my week and share my snaps. Since I am starting this quite late I am going to play catch up. Posting week 1 today, shortly followed by week 2, so that I can do a weekly every Monday. Here are the first 8 days of my year in photos Week 1
Panorama
Beyoglu, Istanbul
The thing about… Intentions and Goals
Reflections on setting goals and intentions for the new year